outa work...

Its a Thursday... and am outta office at 11.am... And this times its not becasue am not feeing well..

Mama is in India..( hez here for only 3 days...:( ) And ram has been really sweet...The team is taking care of itself today... i think they'll be ok...

Thanks again Ram.. no onez made it so smooth so far....

something to hold on to....

“I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.”

“What are we holding on to Sam? “

“That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for..”

Hairaan hoon main...

jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge
muskuraoon to, muskurane ke karz utaarne honge
muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa haitujhase ...

tujhase naaraaz nahi zindagi, hairaan hoon main o hairaan hoon main
tere masoom savalon se pareshaan hooN main o pareshaan hoon main

aaj agar bhar ayi hai, boondein baras jaayengi
kal kya pata inke liye aakhen taras jayengi
jaane kahan gum kahan khoya ek aansu chhupake rakha thatujhase ...

zindagi tere gum ne hamain rishte naye samajhaye
mile jo hamain dhoop main mile chhaanv ke thande saaye

Lets not castigate teh Prey!

(situation)
A girl was in love with a guy.. and the guy also loved her back...they decided to get marriedsometime before marriage, the girl gets raped!
girl tries to confides to the guy... but somehow the guy never recieces the message..And on the first night, the girl talks to teh guy about the unfortunate incident!

Possible reactions of teh guy!1. He is shocked and does not react-- seems like he needs to be taken care more than teh girl thats been raped!The guy needs some space indicating to teh girl that the relationship is over until further notice
2. Since he is already married and has neither the guts to break the marriage or forgive teh girl ( for the mishap that was totally out of her control),he suffers and she suffers for life!
3. The guy consoles the girl.. putting the past truly behind them

I wish the reaction #3 is always chosen--- Rape is not a pleasant event! Rape is not some thing that you let to happen! Let the prey not be castigated!

(The situation is from one of the daily soaps--- chose to mention the source of the thought at the end so that the seriousness of the matter is NOT diluted!)

Is there an end to some tunnels...

Bumped into Shamshad on teh way home last night..

I had brought him some shirts that I had not found tiem to give it yet... I thought, I'd ask him to pick up teh shirts..Plus i'd have some company to walk till home..:)

Shamshad's cheeks showed some remains of tears..Shamshad had been beaten because he refused to home-deliver parcels at 11.00 in the night... "Humme darr nahi lagtha kya... Kitne sare kutte hote hain-- hum phir bhi himmat karke chale jathe the,.... us din tho kisi gadi ne hume utha bhi liya tha..."
"Kisiko humare sath bhejthe bhi nahi hai...Inkaar kiya tho, bohot maraa!"
I was totally dumb-struck-- how could I help this kid? what could I do?
"Hum ghar jaa rahe hain-- baba ki tabiyat achi nahi hai..humne bunty bhaiya se bol diya hain... agar vapis aana hai, tho 6 mahine ka pagar pehle hi dede..."
"parcel dene jaate hain, tho koi log hume rakhne ke liye paise dete hain, tho usko bhi le lete hai"

Amidst all this, I noticed Shamshad was eating ghutka....
On asking why-- he told "bohot gussa aaya jab bhaiyya ne mara, tho..."

I gave some fundaes to him on why-- what he had done was NOT right!!! He agreed on never doing it again!

But the question came back to me again and again--- what could I do for Shamshad?...

Realized that inspite of being a self-sustained member of teh society, I had my boundaries...Everytime I talk to shamshad, I come to realize teh importance of all that "I HAVE"

90/10 principle...

A 3.5 hrs long talk--A total make feel heavenly --- ruined by a mindless 30 min after-talk!

People should be trained to TALK!!!

Amma

God couldnt be there every where.. so he made mothers to care of us!

As each day passes by, I have come to appreciate this line more that ever before!
A teacher- who tells you whats right and whats not, A philosopher- who fills you with fundaes on life and everything around life-- that makes you appreciate the nuances of things that happen or dont! A friend- who can feel and relate to every petty emotion that you might not even dare to confide, A beautiful human- that you want to grow up to, A Guide- who shows you light, no matter how much darkness wraps you, A leader- that leads by example! A shrewd mathematician- who likes to have credit= debit before she hit bed every night, An extremely dynamic orator- who could spell bound every one that hears her, A very patient listener, An intelligent diplomat- that can handle any situation, A fighter- that has never believed in short cuts, The most beautiful lady I have even seen!

Thats my amma!

All is well that ends well

My yardstick is in Days these days...

Last night, Sangee and Rash made sudden dinner plans! At 8.45, Sangee calls and was unusually sweet...:) Well that did not last for too long-- I was ordered to report to the Lobby by 8.55.

In 5 min we were at kavita! I cant figure how we began discussing RFA( Rash's actualproject-- which is better known as Rashmi's Fan association...:) ) Did not take long Sangee's imagination to come up with UFO!(yeah... Right! Its excatly what you are thinking... )
Must say, she musta been really tired...she did not go much beyond UFO...Thank God!..:)

By 10.30 pm I was home! And I slept quiet well-- Why the speacial mention of sleep?-- actually having a strange sleeping patter lately... I sleep really well from 12.00am to 1.00am. Then for about 1 hr I am totally awake-- and sleep seems miles away...
Only after some useless TV browsing, eyelids refuse to stay open!

Anyways, yesterday inspite of my terrible back, I slept like a log... And was able to stick to my plan of "NOT resetting my alarm to 8.30am"

Btw, though yesterday, I was at my best on teh throwball court-- until ofcourse, I attempted to catch Jude's power throw. I caught it arright-- but i had to bend so low, that I had difficult getting back straight..

Moov has been my savior so far!

Also, I like the way things are going at work... I am able to handle quiet a few questions now... I like teh transition from-- "One Sec Antony" phase!....:)

Thats enough of rambling for teh day....!!!

KAravali Parba at mang

Back in shape

ever had those moments.. when everything seems clear!
Have a feeling.. will be entering that phase soon...


Btw, I like my new team... diverse and cute...

Who sez you cant learn anything from Big Boss

Give me the strength to accept, what I can not change
Give me the courage to change what I can
Give me the wisdom to know the difference between the two...


( a pick from Big Boss- Anupama giving fundaes to Kashmira)

A wow Day....

Recruitment went well... some very very experienced ( 11 yrs- technical architecht, 6 yrs linux specialist)and some fairly exp ( 2- 4 yrs tier 3 companies)
I was put with panelists that were PMs and SPMs... amazing experince...I learnt a lot from them... and I realized me not all that bad...:)
They asked me to conduct 2 interviews alone!
I am loving this place.... wish I had booked my tickets for the evening...:(
Anyways, Let me enjoy while it lasts..

BTW, I lost my way everytime i stepped out of ANY building... but frankly cant say i've enjoyed losing my way so much ever before....:)
I've found myself.. generally smiling.. quiet a few times....:) Think I am in generall.. in a happy mood... strangely, I love that i am alone... I am loving every moment...:)I think i really needed this break..

I even treated myself to a low-fat-low cal- rose petalled ice cream...;)

Wondering if your day could still pick up....

Title is a line from Friends-- Rach to Monica, when Monica comes home late one night after having burnt one of her fake boobs - at work! -- Richard's waiting for Mon with a Rose in his mouth--- wow that's pretty romantic... and that would pick up anyone's day!..

well, mine wasnt that faar... but was good enough...., in view of all thats happening lately...
herez the story....

Though today dint actually start off on all that great note, its come around pretty neat...
was at office by 8..no Breakfast...calls from 9.00 till 10.30.. the ramp up planned for next year took away anyli'l excitement left in life...somehow managed to fwd the infy mails that needed to be printed to puneet....came back to ODC and meeting till 12.45...lunch by 1.45...Karavali Parba- work till 2.30...change from the god damn zari-ed 6 yards of cloth...Informed Ravi, ram and Bright on status...collect tickets...collect books from Veena( shez a sweet heart- had kept everything ready)...rush to cab
On teh way to airport- threw up what ever i had eaten
In the plane.. though i was flying almost after 1.5 yrs.. no inclination to relish the feeling...( btw, I love flying- I love to be among the clouds). Just sat back and thought of nothing
after i reached bang.. in the cab on teh way to Guest house called mom..talked for a long time.. that felt goodamidst all the hulla-ballu lately.. havent ahd teh time to talk to het at all..:(

Began to feel positive about the trip--- The campus made me feel wonderful... Everything is amazing out here... truly international.. a world of its own... VAST, yet home!Took a trip to the 'terminal'-- the gym, the canteen, the surroundings and the weather-- made me feel pampered! regretted not bringing my gym clothes...If I am allowed to come with family here, I would definitely get my husband here spend some long walks around the campus...
anyways... except for me having forgotten to get my mobile charger.. I am good!

Well, I do have loads of books.. none of which I have opened yet...:(

I hope I do well tomorrow...

Damn.. I wasnt so worried, even while i was giving my interviews...